I'M CARRIE

Hi, I’m Carrie Holladay. I am a mother of four incredible kids that bring me a world of stress and a world of joy. I grew up in Florida but have lived in Utah my entire adult life, and at this point, it feels more like home than anywhere else.

For the first 10 years of my marriage, I struggled with betrayal trauma and the feeling of being broken. I battled severe anxiety on a regular basis and eventually felt so hopeless that I developed suicidal ideation. My husband's porn addiction came with it the treacherous abuse that no one ever imagines they will find themselves in, and something I would never wish on anyone. When we hit rock bottom, I knew it was either do-or-die (literally), and my life changed in a way that upto that point, I honestly was too afraid to even hope possible.

I discovered the power of somatic mindfulness and the work of nervous system regulation and it was a game-changer. I felt so much clarity and understanding of what was happening in my body and realized I wasn't broken or flawed - my body was doing what it was designed to do given what I had been through.

Not only did I develop the compassion and awareness of what was happening within me, the dark cloud that had consumed me for a decade started to clear. I felt calmer, more confident, more empowered to speak up for myself.

Everything changed.

My relationship with my husband changed, as he also embarked on his own journey; I felt more present with my kids; I felt safer in my own skin as I started to be more ME again.

I'll never forget the moment I knew I wanted to help others experience that liberation too. I was on a walk with a friend that had just discovered her own husband's betrayals and she said to me how glad she was that she saw me go through it because it gave her confidence that she could get through it too.

Now I have the incredible honor of walking with so many incredible humans all around the world as they navigate on their own journey back to themselves.